a marathon of discovering and downloading new bands, poker, taqitos, guitar, band?, book, music, ben folds five/pink floyd, cliche, donovan frankenreiter, yelling matches, room cleaning, leaf blowers, ears hurting, worrisome convo, fighting everything, feeling bad, resenting, missing people, loneliness, bored, cs, room, back to old habits, cds, netflix, no flicks, dr. dre as interpreted by geeky white boys from jersey, wishing i was anywhere else, wondering, posting an lj that no one will read the entire way through (probably), mouse pad woes, lights off, weigtlifting, finally filling a burnt cd withing 7 seconds of max, letdown in the form of denial of goign to a concert of my favorite performer, finding out that now that cd wont all fit, responsibility, wanting to be a kid, denial, bummed-ness, realizing this is an emo-fucking update, not caring, waiting, being REAAALLLLLLLY fucking sad about the concert, having to go to ryan adams instead, not knowing if i like ryan adams, yelling at my comp for burning cds slow, wanting to see coldplay live, wanting to see jack johnson live (oh yeah...), wanting things how they were, wanting things to progress, wanting school to never start, fearing that strech of time between november and february, realizing how lonely im goign to be next year at school, wanting to transfer to bellarmine, missing steph and julie already (little early, i know), wishing to hang out more, differently the same, wondering why i can never have profound retrospective thoughts, wishing for a person renaissance, staying up way too damn late, football, england, delighting in new cd, being done.